18 3 / 2014
feel like most minutes of the day are scheduled and packed with an assortment of tasks/chores (in addition to my job) which I spend most of my day worrying/fretting about whether or not I’ll be able to get them completed. I find myself squeezing in pumping sessions in between meetings at work mixed with trips to Target or the grocery store during my non-lunch hour or on the way home. Rushing home to help feed the pre-schooler and infant so husband can go work out and then it’s bedtime and BF for the baby followed by a bath for the pre-schooler then PJ’s, books, bed and dinner (if cereal or a quesadilla count) for me until husband gets home to help with bottles and lunches for the next day. And then I take a breath and sit down and get ready to do it all again tomorrow. I know that it will get easier (and harder in some ways) as my girls grow but, today and most days, I feel pulled in a million directions and I long for a break. I love my husband and my family but today, I am tapped out. I’m looking for a new way to re-charge and re-fill my tank and soul and find some balance. Today is a hard day.
14 3 / 2014